… Again. At a loss for words. At a loss for hope. At a loss for any sort of understanding.
I write this post with a heavy heart. This is not how I would have hoped my posts would come, but I would be an as if I didn't post this.
I'm in mourning. I'm mourning the loss of a very dear friend. And by dear friend, I don't think anyone would understand what I mean; and nor do I expect anyone to.
I will not get into details. It's not fair to do so. However, this fellow and I have been through in a short 2 years what most will never in a lifetime. We were both better for it.
Nobody is perfect. He had his flaws. But he had some traits about him that were perfect. He was a true friend. Those whom knew him could not disagree.
This was the guy that would pay for and send cabs to the pub for the boys, even if he was home sick … just so nobody would drive home drunk.
He'd hold you hand through that abortion procedure, even when your guy wouldn't.
This is the guy that would drive an hour in the snow at 2 AM the night before his final, just to fix your car to get you ready for your road trip the next day.
He was a gentleman. He would always open doors, not just for the ladies, but for friends and strangers alike.
He's that guy people turn to for help, to talk, or if one needed to laugh and feel better.
He was a man of his word. He always came through. More often than not, there aren't too many people that one can place absolute trust in. He was one that you could trust to do anything needed. He would go well beyond the call of duty.
This man was the epitome of "the nice guy". I miss him dearly.
You know, it's not fair. It simply is not fair. He represents a dying breed of men that actual have true honour.
Not only am I mourning the loss of a friend, I'm mourning the loss of a great person that is part of that hope I have for the world.
Maybe I was born hundreds of years late, but I'm one of those guys that values integrity and honour.
It saddens me to see the world today and the ass holes that fuck it all up.
Maybe it's time to throw in the towel and just sell out … It might just be the only way I can get anything I want …
… Fuck …
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