Archive for January, 2007

… it’s that time of year …

Posted: 01/27/2007 in None

As I grow another year older, I thought I was to wallow in my own prison of denial quietly … but, no. That, is not to be. In fact, I’ve been told I’m having a b-day shin-dig.

*Apparently*, I’m not to have a say in this matter. You see, last year was a year of many firsts for me. It was the first time (in a long time), I celebrated my birthday. It was the first time I puked (due to the isane amount of alcohol consumed). It was the first time I celebrated my birthday twice.

It was a gong show. So many good friends showed up. As it was great to see everyone, I was even more so pleased to see how many of my friends enjoyed the company of my other friends. It’s as if it was just one big mixer. Most everyone has met some other people at one of my events.

So, with that in mind, that many of you have come to me asking when my next event will be. Well … here it is:

Who: You, being my friend … and any and all of your friends …
What: Sit, drink, eat, and be merry …
When: Friday, February 2nd, 9.30PM
Where: Chivana Resto Lounge [map]
Why: … to “celebrate my birthday” …

As is with any of my events, everyone I know is welcome. Any of your friends are welcome. Anyone I would be fortunate enough to meet is welcome.

This invite does go out to all of you whom I know aren’t even in town. Just because you aren’t here doesn’t mean you’re not welcome. I miss you guys.

Please check your email for my Evite, or check in on the event page.

It’ll be just a chill night. Drop by after dinner. Drop by for dinner. Have a couple of drinks. Mingle. Say “Hi”, get the night started, before hitting downtown.

The only rule remains … no presents!

… that’s it. See you there.


Posted: 01/18/2007 in None

*poke poke* …

Posted: 01/16/2007 in None

To my dear friends,

I miss you guys. I mean, I really miss you guys. I apologize for having been so out of touch lately. Slaving away at 2.5 jobs is a bitch and then some. As you all know, I don’t exactly sleep much. But for me to say that my sleeping patterns as whacked … you know I’m *messed*.

In any case, it seems my last post seems to have stirred the pot a bit and people are asking me all sorts of questions. Not to worry, my friends, I’m alright. This blog serves as a bit of a sounding board for me at times. Every now and then, I find myself experiencing the odd epiphany while rambling on a new post. Mind you, often those posts never make it out to the public, but that’s neither here nor there.

One thing I’ve noticed is that my blog has recorded some real high’s and low’s in my life. It certainly is much like a diary, I suppose. And I’m glad to know some of you check in from time to time.

I must apologize to some of you as I hadn’t had the chance to make my b-day shout-out’s. So … [P]Irv, Shivs, Cato, Wingman, Lilith, Kaptain, Mikey-B, Blondie, Slick, and Pornstar … Happy Birthday!

So much has happened in recent months. I can’t exactly hide behind work, truth be told. And I’d be an ass if I didn’t make mention of some of those events.

I was honoured to be invited to witness the joining of Brighteyes and Alky in holy matrimony. So much has changed over the years. That tight crowd that was once, is no longer. I rarely see Brighteyes anymore. It’s a shame really. I love her. She’s truly one of the best people I know.

Recently, I went through quite the learning experience in having befriended EVILyn. It’s sad to say that she’s now a former co-worker. It was fun working with her. She certainly kept things interesting. And I learned a lot from her in two short weeks. She’s a beautiful, young woman finding her way in life. I miss her.

In the last 3 months, I’ve had little time to see people, but I did manage to have some good sit-down’s with some of you. The likes of EVILyn, Renka, Tel, Sassy Hermit, Blondie, Lilith … I thank you. You guys are wonderful. Why? How? You folks keep me sane. Don’t ask me to explain. Just go with it, okay?

In any case, I’m going to offer up a shameless plug before I’m off to bed. For all you folks in CowTown, check out the hottest new sushi lounge – Blowfish. They’re now open! It’s a venture Jem is part of. I know she’s worked hard to get this project up and running. Drop on by and check out their specials, and tell Jem I send my love.

625 – 11th Ave SW
Calgary, AB
Canada [map]

Okay … I’m knackered …

Love you all …


… And Another One …

Posted: 01/10/2007 in None

First and foremost …

Happy New Year, everyone! From me to you, here’s wishing you all the best to you and yours!

I know I’ve been entirely out of touch with people. I assure you, it’s not by choice. You all know me. It’s not in my nature to let friendships fall by the wayside. I love my friends. I love you guys.

I’ve been working like a dog. These last couple of months, I’ve come to realize some things that have given me quite a different perspective on things. Mind you, that perspective I’ve always known and saw, but was in one way or another unable to follow through with certain practices that I probably should have put in place a long time ago.

I know. It sounds like denial. And it probably is. I know I sound like a broken record about the woes of my past. Little by little, I’m making the steps towards the something better; overcoming obstacle after obstacle.

Life has been interesting since my return home. I was in a bad place when I got home. Despite being home, I was lost. I had no shortage of friends in and around. There were far too many to name. In fact, this last summer, I had friends visiting from all over literally every week. Even during my trip out to the Stampede, I had friends here – friends I wish I could have seen, but nonetheless, good times. However, I still wasn’t getting certain answers. I wasn’t getting what I needed. It’s of no fault of any of you, my friends. It’s all got to do with me.

I spent a considerable amount of time living at home again with my folks. I love my folks, but I’ve come to learn that there does come a time when one just can’t live one’s life while under the same roof as one’s parents … well, perhaps it’s heavily an Asian thing with that damn cultural gap and all.

I think it was after my reunion that I realized what I needed was time. You see, so many people from my grad class were apprehensive about even going to the event for fear of being ribbed and belittled by their peers. Fortunately for most everyone, we found that it was good times all around. We talked about the pressure we all felt as a result of the environment we did came from, the expectations, and the like. But, in the end, we all walked the walk, and found ourselves where we are today … and content at that.

The time I needed was to reflect back upon the steps I’d taken. I had to look long and hard at the steps that have lead me to where I am today. My pops has always told me, even at a young age, that “only when you know where you come from, do you know where you’re going”. How true is that? I spent many an hour … nay … many a day … re-evaluating my life, the different phases and stages I went though. The good, the bad … the ugly.

I ain’t perfect. I’ve made my mistakes. What, with decisions regarding people, school, jobs, direction in life … but you live and learn, right? I’ve made some real big mistakes. What, with decisions regarding people, school, jobs, direction in life …

There are times when it’s easy for me to blame others. Bluntly put, there have instances where I’ve been negatively affected by others, where decisions they make hand-cuff me, where they blame me for their own stubborn shortsightedness … but I won’t get into details. I now see that though it’s easy to blame others, it’s difficult to right it myself … but I have to do it. For if I don’t, it’ll only hurt me in the end. So, if there’s any sort of new year’s resolution I’m to make … it’s to make sure I don’t take shit from anyone anymore.

This last year, not a lot went my way. It was a rough year. Those that have know me for a while would most likely agree that I’ve had myself a number of rough years … going on 4 years now, in fact. It’s time to put a stop to that.

Some years ago, when life was much better, a good friend (once upon a time) explained to me that there are several facets of life that make or break a person. These parameters are family, friends, love, health, and career. Truth be told, family has always been steadfast. Friends, like an extended and ever-expanding family, have always been supportive. Beyond that … well … *sigh* Love … I’m still in recovery. Health … in decline. Career … let’s not even talk about it.

One may argue that I have such a wealth of friends … that I may be considered more fortunate than others. Depending on how you look at it, it may or may not be true. I know I am blessed with so many good friends. They are all wonderful, wonderful people. I wouldn’t have it any other way. But, no disrespect to any of you, friends don’t pay the bills.

It’s with this in mind that I’ve found myself buckling down and focusing on getting my life together. I’m working my ass off. I know I’m not that smart. I’m not that talented. I’m not that experienced. But I work hard at whatever I do. It’s the one trait no one can fault me on. At current, I’m working 2 jobs. I’m working at least 6 days a week. I’m working odd hours.

I wish I had more time to see my friends. Take my word for it, it’s not because I don’t want to see you. It’s not that I don’t care. But as some of your have been telling me for some time now … it’s time for me to be selfish. I need to do what I need to do.

… & write back @ ya’!

Ghis : Hey, girl. Yeah, life has been crazy. I work too much. I barely have a social life. It’s starting to remind me of when I first moved to CowTown. I’m back in Van-City now. I plan to be hear for a while, me thinks.

In any case, I read that you’re expecting! Congrats! Just remember … if your little one steps out of line … there’s always Uncle Warz‘ Boot Camp!

Anonymous : … DAR? … DAR! DAR! … RHB!

J.Lo : Nope, that wasn’t Pac-Man‘s work. Speaking of which … people say I’ve gone AWOL … no one seems to have any idea what he’s up to …