Archive for August, 2005

Posted: 08/10/2005 in None

… i don’t know how much more of this i can take … i’m at my breaking point … i don’t know what to do …

… i try to keep it real, but it’s all for naught … what, the hell, did i ever do to deserve this?

… fuck …

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Posted: 08/08/2005 in None

Birthday Roll Call …

Birthday wishes to:

Cal-girl … Do what’s right for you. We’re definitely not getting any younger …

Trish … My li’l sis … My, we’ve changed over the years, eh?

… and Jack-E … I still envy you … globetrotting … You make me sick!

Happy birthday, my friends!

Posted: 08/08/2005 in None

I Miss Rugby …

… & write back @ ya’!

J.Lo : Chin up, babe! Chin up! 😉 You should look up my bro. He likes to eat about as much as I do!

Posted: 08/05/2005 in None

“Update!!!” … So They Say …

Yeah, it’s been a while. I’ve been jotting down notes here and there, but nothing worthy of posting. It’ll all seem like an incoherent stream of crap … maybe I should have posted it, since it wouldn’t be a far cry from what I normally post here.

To be honest, I don’t even know who reads this thing. I know of, maybe, a handful of my friends that do on (if you can call it) a ‘regular’ basis. In fact, I do believe I have an audience of people I don’t even know. Odd …

Anyhow … best not to bore you with a chronological account of the last … {rolls eyes} … month … I’ll just put it out there in no particular order …

… yeah … this will be a long one …

Lately, I’ve been finding it hard to find the will to blog. True, I’ve been as busy … but I used to actually make time to do this. I just can’t seem to be bothered at times. Sometimes, I’d itching to do something … anything. And yet what I want to do, I can’t. Sometimes, I feel so lethargic (to borrow a term from Mitch) … feeling almost hopeless as I sit and ponder. And at times, I wish I can just fall into what Sassy Hermit calls that catatonic state, and just not care or worry about anything …

I do get out now and then, despite being busy with stuff. It’s a small price to pay for a wee bit of sanity. It’s been a ride since I met the Grouch through Cutie, Si through [P]Irv. It’s always nice to meet new people and hang some. But there are still some people that I’d like to see but haven’t had the pleasure of doing so. I guess people are just “busy” … or maybe there’s a hint to be taken …

So I’ve been in Cow-Town for all of 6 months. I suppose I can’t be complaining as I’m still new to the city. However, I can’t help but miss the lifestyles I had back in TO and Van-City. Well, home is home … is home. The city, I love. The people I love … family and friends. With the boys … always good times …

And out east … living with Marilla and Kira was a blast. Having the ritual @ CW as the The Funky 4-some was, as Gracey always put it, stress-free. Much time spent across the table from Renka was always a treat. … and, oh, the trouble I’d get into with the Ruggers

On that note, I’ve got to give credit to Jack-E. Good on you for making it happen! I look forward to reading about his (mis)adventures while globe-trotting!

I caught “Charlie And The Chocolate Factory” … fucking weird. Johnny Depp is the one and only reason to see this movie. His performance was fun to watch. Otherwise, Don’t bother. Heck, I’m wasting time writing about it now …

I also caught “Wedding Crashers” … fucking awesome. Owen Wilson and Vince Vaughn are quickly becoming (if they aren’t already) type-casted as the same characters in every movie … and it works. The movie did start losing a bit of steam near the end, but the laughs kept rolling.

So, I did it … like I said I hoped I would … I watched “Before Sunrise” again, in preparation to watch “Before Sunset“. I watched both movies … and now I’m at sixes and sevens.

I miss making that connection with someone. I’m finding myself kicking myself in the ass a lot for basically being a complete and utter idiot. I miss the talks. I miss her smile. I miss making her giggle … oh, how I miss that laugh …

And now I’m stuck in between a rock and a hard case. Ask me, as Baby-J did, what is it about her that makes me beam … and I couldn’t tell you. As juvenile as it sounds, “I just do” just about sums it up best. Just the thought of her makes me smile. Seeing her, and I do get tongue-tied.

*sigh*

So this last trip home was an impromptu treat, if you will. No set plans … Just doing what I need to do. Got in some good eats like Bridges … Killed some us some stingers (right-click to download) …

… was in Seattle … just something I had to do … met up with friends to hit up more good eats at Ivar’s … wished there was time to see Zed and Baek-Ko’Laska

You know what pisses me off? I’m getting fatter … again. I guess at work, I’m now stuck in an icebox, plugging away at documentation. I used to have to walk around to deal with things. But the office is now at the point where most everything is running smoothly and I just need to write up the ‘cookbooks’.

What’s worse is that I’m only eating maybe a meal, maybe a meal and a half, per day. I often skip lunch … rather, I forget to eat. You guys know how I am when I get working; I don’t stop. *Oi* … so much for a healthier lifestyle …

I miss working near Chinatown. The food was so cheap there. For lunch, I could get full for about $6. Now, I spend $14 and I’m still hungry. *Boo!* Oh well …

Enough for one day … Time to forage for food …

“Go get yourself a life,” one reader suggested to me … I have one. I have two, in fact. Too bad they’re both in different cities …

… & write back @ ya’!

Mitch : Much easier said than done, I assure you, or else I would have done something. It’s … complicated … or you can say that I lack that testicular fortitude required to do it. I appreciate the support, my friend. However, I’ve basically up Shit Creek with no canoe; and I feel so stupid, I should be giving myself a paddlin’ …

Gracey : You are more than welcome! Happy birthday, babe! I just hope the flowers looked alright. The theme *was* pink, right? 😉

Dutchess : Heya, sweets! I should be home for a stretch of that, but I can’t be for certain right now. I should know by December though. Looking forward to seeing you! It’s been too long!

Baby-J : When does Ivar’s disappoint? And indeed I did! They have a new menu, with a new Dungeness Crab and Sweet Corn Chowder … awesome … {still drooling at the thought} …