… okay … so I haven’t been myself lately … sorry …
Archive for February, 2005
You ever been faced with a complete conflict of interest? What does one do about it?
Useless … Abso-freakin’-lutely Useless
… don’t ask … and I won’t tell …
Happy Birthday, Dimples!
Here’s to you, Little Miss Dimples! Have a great one! And take it from this old fart … You won’t stay young for long … but you can stay immature forever! Buon compleanno, bella!
For the first time since I’ve moved here, I actually went to bed before 11 PM. Wow. I had forgotten what it feels like to have had sleep. It’s weird, I tell you …
… & write back @ ya’!
Baby-J : … *right* … like you’d pass up an opportunity to laugh *at* me! And what do you mean “… it’s about time”, huh?
Where To Begin, Even … ?
I didn’t sleep much last night. Yes, I know I don’t sleep much to begin with, but it was because I was up thinking. Certain phone calls lately have got me kind of knotted up. And it’s somewhat been a bit of a spotlight, if just for/to myself, of just how much I care about people around me.
I don’t think anyone who knows me would say that I take my friends’ troubles lightly. But sometimes, I do find myself worrying a little too much. Perhaps some of those around me are right; that I do have to worry about myself more. And I did try to hammer out some things for myself …
So, for the first time in a very, very long time … so long, in fact, that I can’t even remember the last time … I’ve found myself actually uncomfortable around someone …
This is unfamiliar territory to me. I know it’s going to sound like I’m tooting my horn here, but fact is, I rarely find myself completely out of my comfort zone when it comes to dealing with others. As Pac-Man once described me, I’m a chameleon.
This person is one whom I don’t know where I stand, nor how I’m viewed. At times it’s easy to make eye contact, and others I have to look away. It’s hard to believe but sometimes I find myself not knowing what to say, let alone how to say it.
The relationship dynamic is an evolution. It has been ever-changing, and it’s been yet to be absolutely determined. Far too many parameters govern what could be something rather simple.
So I go to explain my findings to Baby-J. This lady I share most everything with; be it my inner most, deeper thoughts … or whatever on my dinner plate she seems to fancy at the moment. Historically, from her, I would find support and comfort. Today, I got laughed at. Thanks.
But at the same time, I see her point. In fact, from an objective point of view, I’m laughing at myself too. This is so out of character for me. I think that’s why it’s so humourous.
I suppose time will tell. But not right now. Right now is time for dinner.
Music For Your Soul
Okay. Here comes a shameless plug. Why? Because this guy deserves it.
This is the result of a pursuit of one’s passion for music. I still remember very clearly the conversation Jovo and I had with Chip on a typically rainy Rain-city evening whilst en route to Jovo‘s old BBY pad.
Chip was being groomed to take over the family business, but his heart was elsewhere. If you knew him the way we do, then you’d understand why we encouraged him to follow his dream.
When I heard of this, I was overjoyed. Good on you, buddy!