Archive for August, 2004

Posted: 08/27/2004 in None

… the rollercoaster that is life …

Firstly, a big “Thank-you!” to Jack-E for helping me with my quest to find Alex To‘s “I’m Sorry“. I still don’t know what it means – I just like the way it sounds.

I read my friends’ blogs on a nightly basis. I genuinely want to know what’s going on in their lives. I want to know what they’re thinking. I don’t spend as much time with them as I’d like. Some time ago, I read up on Lemming-Boy‘s posting. I was instantly taken aback.

There was so much of what he said that I could relate to. I am alone. I have disappointed my parents. I am the black sheep of my family. I don’t have that direction in life. I am lacking in so many ways. I know I may never find that ‘one’ person. I know, my friends. I know all too well.

Sometimes my life seems to be wrapped up in a whirlwind of perpetual change. It has been like that for some years now. It seems that life hands me lemon after lemon. I’m tired of making lemonade. I’m running out of sugar. It’s getting pretty damn bitter.

Is it driving me insane?. It’s come close to it – me going insane. But every time life gets too bitter, my loved ones come to the rescue. Be it a sit-down talk, or dragging my butt out for a good piss-up, they always come through. My friends and family have been my rock these years. I don’t know if they know it; but they are. I am so incredibly thankful for them, I cannot begin to explain it in words.

The last two days have been a mixed bag. On Wednesday, I picked up Cutie from the airport as she’d ‘relocated’ here, seemingly for good. I got to spend the day with her and caught up a bit. I brought her out to dinner with the ol’ crowd to celebrate Jovo‘s birthday.

It was great to see everyone. We don’t hang out nearly as much as we used to, save for the 3 stooges. Things change over time, and so do relationships. At times it truly bothers me. I miss the good old days. I miss the day when life was so much more simple.

So that was the UP, but yesterday was a bit of the DOWN. I hold my friends very dear. They are like family to me. There’s little I wouldn’t do for them. Yesterday, I had brushes several peoples’ troubles. I will speak of no details other than the fact that I deeply care for these ladies.

These troubles range from relationship issues, career problems, to life decisions and the like. I, of all people, know that there are some troubles that one cannot find help in others. However, it does pain me to no end to see a good friend in a state of distraught. There’s so much I wish I could do. If there is anything that I can do to erase the pain, I would do it in a heartbeat.

Unfortunately, life isn’t so simple anymore. Some years back things could be ‘fixed’ so much more easily. It’s no longer the case. We’ve all come to the age where everything we choose to do and not do has such an affect of our lives. Life isn’t so much the fun and games as it used to be.

We all know this … and we all know that … We all feel that no one understands. We all think we’re alone. We all know we are unique. But, in that, it makes us all the same. We are never truly alone. We do have each other. Although we may not be able to makes our problems disappear, we can help each other through the rollercoaster journey that is life.

I just hope my loved ones know that I will pick them up when they are down. I will carry them if they feel they cannot go on. I will walk with them every step of the way …

… & write back @ ya’!

Gish : *Excellent* … now onto other quick, get-rich schemes … maybe all a part of a diabolical plan for world domination? … hmmm … interesting

Jovo : … and I’m sure you will have undoubtedly sent my best to the fam … Sorry, I didn’t end up calling last night. Things got … weird. A long story I won’t get into … Wingman and I are talking late-nite eats tonight … call me.


Posted: 08/26/2004 in None

Happy Birthday, Jovo!

Time to tie one on!

Posted: 08/25/2004 in None

To start, you’ll find a re-cap of my weekend here, and some (non-incriminating) photos here. Good times that ended too soon, I say. It was great to have met a new friend. You all know how much I love meeting people.

… I’ll be thinking out loud again … It’s so much easier to write this way. I just write, then go back and weed out the good stuff from the bad stuff. Yes, I do censor myself a lot.

My loyal readers of these past years will say that I’ve moved away from talking about world issues and the like. I suppose this is true. I remember I had a big write-up about the tragedy that was September, 11th, 2001. I slammed the US for their own stupidity. I made it very clear that they should have expected such a terrorist attack for the way they politically strong-arm other countries to benefit themselves.

Maybe it’s time for me to get back into it a bit …

I haven’t been watching much of the Olympics, save for in my spare time and I have nothing else better to do. But I have been keeping up on the ‘scandals’; particularly those involving athletes from the Great White North. Having been a former gymnast myself, I do watch the gymnastics on and off. I must say, the judges are on crack.

Anyhow, I think professional team sports should be removed from the Games. Team sports have moved the Games so far away from the concept. Some would argue against it as such sports should have a competition at the world scale. People, there is – it’s called the World Championships. Nearly every major sport has such an event. Moreover, with some many ‘world scale’ competitions, athletes tend to not want to compete as often. Thus, we never see a truly top-calibre team representing any country.

Secondly, individual events that showcase skill, and not athleticism, should be removed as well. Frankly, anybody can practice archery to achieve great aim, but not everyone can train to run 100 metres in under 10 seconds. Remember, the original concept of the Games was the competition of human athleticism – not skill, not even sports.

Be it resolved that golf should be re-classified as a really difficult activity … Who’s with me?

And on to more important things …

I’ve been meaning to follow up on as much of hockey as I can. But I’ve been pretty busy. When saw the announced World Cup roster for Canada, I saw some names I didn’t really know. It really is a changing of the guard. Then again, they did build this team for the NHL-size rinks. I see a lot more grit than the Salt Lake squad.

I love the fact that Canada’s always had such depth. There never seems to be a controversy, or even so much as a question, as per the naming of players on teams from other countries. It’s almost exclusively a Canadian certainty. In fact, I do believe TSN once questioned how we’d do if we were to send 2 teams to the world competition. I’d kill for a Canada-Canada final!

I think what really sets hockey players apart from the athletes from the other professional sports is class. This rings true of Canadian players in particular. They never bitch and whine. They just accept the decision and support the country’s cause. There’s no beef here … just bacon, baby.

So lately I’ve been catching up with people as it is the nearing the end of summer …

Chip called me out tonight for a quite bubble tea. Unfortunately, Sans was unavailable. Nonetheless, it’s always great to see that guy. We caught up on things, with each other’s lives, our families … the latest …

I have my somewhat regular chats with Rugby Chick. I’m glad to hear she’s moving on out to Joke’ville to start the next phase of her life. Kinda wish I was there to help her out with the move.

Franchaise dropped me a line while he was in the ‘Wa to touch base. He’s still looking for a second opinion on his fractured C-5, so that he might be able to hit the pitch again.

Gabey moved into a new apartment with his lady, and is looking to tie one on when I’m back out east. We’ll have to get Wanker out, no doubt …

Life gets complicated at times when you’re making everything fit. As Baby-J and I have found, sometimes square pegs will have to fill in round holes. She’s been awesome though – always in support.

Otherwise, I’ve been missing some people … okay, so I’m missing a lot of people …

It’s been like, forever, since I’ve seen Brighteyes. I’ve been so busy that I just haven’t had time. And I know she’s a busy girl too. Lucky for me, she’s got a little din-din action going on tomorrow night!

Berty called me the other day. I feel so crappy that I hadn’t called him back yet. The timing wasn’t there – I’m sure he’d appreciate a 3 AM EST phone call. I miss footy with the crew.

I miss the Front Row. I know that Kingpin is busy with … stuffEasy-E is probably stoned … And Dean-O just got laser eye surgery so he can officially become a crocked cop. It’ll be nice to know low people in high places … We’re grab Gabey for a good piss-up …

One day soon, Dean-o and I’ll have to call out Davy J and crawl the Danforth … again …

I don’t seem to catch Dutchess online as much anymore. Or when she is online, she’s rather busy. I trust all is well with her though, otherwise I would have heard about it already.

It’s been a while since I’ve sat down to a meal with Renka. I miss that. Our bi-weekly meal plan never manifested itself. Rather, it became a coffee and a meal, or simply a couple meals per week. At its best (… or worst), the plan was 10 meals in 14 days. Yes, we’re certifiably nuts … and we love it!

… & write back @ ya’!

… trying to catch up on things here …

Baby-J : Ideally, I’d like to keep Kira around as long as possible. I love her company, but alas, that’s not my decision to make.

Ah-Mun and Ah-Ho have noted that she’s much more well-behaved when I’m around – as I’ve told you about her ‘rebellious’ tendencies as of this last weekend while I was away.

We’ll talk more on this issue when we’re home, I’m sure.

Gish : Done and done. Just let me know where and when and I’m there. And when all is said (again and again) and done, then we’ll get drunk for shits and giggles …

Jovo : Please forward your bank statement to Gish for financial review. Your membership fee will dependent on your annual income.

Remember, we’re well aware of your current situation and are sympathetic. We’re not only the Co-Presidents, we’re also the founding members …

Ghis : I can’t say I know Maroon 5 all too well. I basically noticed the video as I was flipping channels. For some reason (all to myself, that is), I simply loved the song. I really like the sound. Is the rest of their music similar?

and Ghis again : Sweetheart, you just don’t understand. I appreciate it, I really do … but, honestly, nobody understands. This I know, because at this moment I don’t even understand …

Jovo :*ah*Kelly Preston … no need to say more …

Posted: 08/23/2004 in None

She Will Be Loved

Beauty queen of only eighteen

She had some trouble with herself

He was always there to help her

She always belonged to someone else

I drove for miles and miles

And wound up at your door

I’ve had you so many times but somehow

I want more

I don’t mind spending everyday

Out on your corner in the pouring rain

Look for the girl with the broken smile

Ask her if she wants to stay awhile

And she will be loved

She will be loved

Tap on my window knock on my door

I want to make you feel beautiful

I know I tend to get so insecure

It doesn’t matter anymore

It’s not always rainbows and butterflies

It’s compromise that moves us along

My heart is full and my door’s always open

You can come anytime you want

I don’t mind spending everyday

Out on your corner in the pouring rain, oh

Look for the girl with the broken smile

Ask her if she wants to stay awhile

And she will be loved

She will be loved

And She will be loved

And She will be loved

I know where you hide

Alone in your car

Know all of the things that make you who you are

I know that goodbye means nothing at all

Comes back and begs me to catch her every time she falls

Tap on my window knock on my door

I want to make you feel beautiful

I don’t mind spending everyday

Out on your corner in the pouring rain, oh

Look for the girl with the broken smile

Ask her if she wants to stay awhile

And she will be loved

She will be loved

And she will be loved

She will be loved

Please don’t try so hard to say good bye

Maroon 5 : Songs About Jane

Posted: 08/23/2004 in None

My Existence Is Futile

I had a phone call tonight. It just comfirmed my worst fear – that I am a complete, fucking failure. It’s now clear to me, I shouldn’t bother anymore …

Posted: 08/19/2004 in None

Things That Make Me Go “… hmmm …” …

… hmmm … looking to find a used Nokia GSM phone for cheap … anyone know where I can find one?

… hmmm … what would it be like if Ah-Ho was around my age? It’s no secret he hangs with me and my friends. Some outsiders find it strange, among my friends, he’s a welcome addition. But at times, like our Wings Wednesday yesterday, his youth pops up. He, Wingman and I did the pub crawl – not by choice, mind you – to find a place that would, um, not ask the minor for ID. I guess I wonder what trouble we could get ourselves into …

… hmmm … does anyone find that a person with a seemingly “out of the ordinary” characteristic more attractive? Tonight, as I hit No. 9 with Ah-Mun and Ah-Ho to satisfy my craving, I found a young Caucasian lady working there. On the surface, I found her to be mediocre at best. *BUT*, she spoke damn near perfect Chinese. Suddenly, she seemed more attractive – at least to me. Then again, maybe it’s the intrigue talking. … and no, Jovorich does not qualify as an “out of the ordinary” characteristic …

… hmmm … Baby-J, I know you check in here to see what might be the latest going on with Kira. Let me tell you she’s having a great time. She’s had the run of the house and the backyard. We play a bit of fetch with her on a daily basis. She’s been looking very healthy, but not eating as much (we believe due to the heat). We can no longer see her ribs, nor can we feel them when we pet her side – which is a great sign! Everyone who’s met her thinks she’s gorgeous, friendly, and playful. And I assure you she’s been showered with love. … but I do wonder if she’ll get the aforementioned in Kingston. Will she be happy there?

… hmmm … been looking to catch up with people as of late. Brighteyes and Chip contacted me today. I look forward to seeing them some time next week. I wish I had more time to do all that I wanted to do, see all that I wanted to see. Will I really get around to seeing everyone? I’m starting to think not … *sigh* …

… hmmm … while talking to Dutchess, she said a little something that caught me off guard. Today, near the end of a brief chat, Renka said the same thing – “Thank you for being a good friend,”. I’m a little lost. I’m thinking, “What have I done for you lately?“. Honestly, in the case of Dutchess, there’s not much I can do for her seeing as she’s living half-way around the world. With Renka, I offer nothing to her as she’s such a strong, independent woman. It’s not fair for me to be taking any credit. I’ve done nothing … why should you be grateful?

… hmmm … I’ve found that I’ve had to explain myself a lot lately; specifically as per my schooling situation. Though I’ve got nothing to hide, it’s become redundant. And each time I explain it, I get reminded of the shitty hand I’ve been dealt with … again. Academically, I’ve had nothing but bad luck since high school graduation. Maybe I wasn’t meant to do school … ? Did I ignore all those signs? Why is it that I get fucked around one time after another?

… hmmm … will I end up a bitter old man? My academic career(s) got me nowhere. I’m a jack of all trades, but master of none … which basically means I excel at nothing in particular. My love life is a barren desert, of which this camel sees no water in sight; not even a mirage to pass the time. I fear I’ll start drinking the sand, not knowing the difference. All in all, changes in my life come quickly and severely; making me a midget at a urinal – on my toes. Maybe the answer is “Yes“.

… hmmm … and what the fuck was I thinking!? … *oi*MetroBoy knows what I’m talking about … shee-ite

… & write back @ ya’!

Ghis :The Shawshank Redemption” and “The Green Mile” are great films. No argument from this corner.

I admit, I do like the chick flicks. So long as it’s not too sappy. Although, I couldn’t help but shed a tear at the end of “Anna and the King” and “Pay It Forward“.

Posted: 08/18/2004 in None

Excuse Me While I Think Out Loud …

… and here goes …

Watched “The Power of One” the other day. For some reason of another, when asked what my favourite movies are, I always seem to fail to list this one. People, I tell you, it’s an incredible film. I’m a Morgan Freeman fan. However, Stephen Dorff stole the show. I honestly believe he’s one of the most under-rated actors out there.

It’s almost 2 AM PST, and I can’t sleep. I’ve got “The Mambo Kings” on the TV. In this flick Armand Assante stars opposite Antonio Banderas. An interesting tidbit about the latter is that this was his very first English-speaking film, but, he hadn’t yet learned to speak the language – in fact, I do believe he’s still in the process of learning.

Today was a good day. I didn’t sleep much last night. I ended up chatting with Huggy Bear on the phone at an insane hour in the morning. We had a good talk about pretty much anything under the sky. In the end, I slept in a little bit.

By mid-day, Ah-Mun, Edimus, and I headed out to pick up Ah-Ho from the airport. It was good to see my little brother … despite his unruly hair. We then dragged him along with us to make sure he doesn’t sleep as to avoid troubles with jet-lag.

I ended up hitting Moore’s to find myself a suit. I chose a nice, dark grey, blue pin-striped Alfred Sung number. By the end of that experience, I figured I really should start to diversify my wardrobe. … and yes, I’ve been saying that for years now …

Afterward, we went to grab a bite at Sammy J’s. Ah-Ho was complaining that he was hungry. I can’t say that I blame the guy. After all, how full can you get on airplane food?

I’m happy to report that Edimus has become an uncle again. His sister delivered a healthy baby boy this afternoon. Congrats, buddy!

Come evening, I got a phone call from Blondie. Her mother’s computer is on the blink so I popped on by (with Ah-Ho and Kira in tow) to see what I can do for them and to visit. Blondie was looking good, and was her usual cheerful self. Her mother and I had a nice chat. Blondie‘s sister is in town and expecting! It’d been years since I’ve seen her last.

Ah-Ho was craving western food. He’s had more than his share of Chinese cuisine. So I drove him out to a BP to fill his stomach. Earlier on in the day, I had missed a call from Rugby Chick, so I text messaged her to apologize. A couple of messages later, she called me. She filled me in on the ‘latest’. T’was a good chat …

I’m listening to the music of the movie as the credits are running. I don’t know why, but I’ve always had a thing for movie soundtracks. Maybe it’s variety of music it provides, but I tend to want to buy them.

My favourite is still “When Harry Met Sally“, but for the life of me, I can’t seem it find it anywhere. Sadly, I think I’ve lost it while moving from house to house. I also like my “Sleepless in Seattle” and “What Women Want“. I tend to like the jazzier stuff, I guess. Otherwise, “The Power of One” is always mellow and soothing.

Speaking of which, I think I’m going to have to find all the songs to “Woman On Top“. I watched the flick a couple of years ago. I thought it was cute at best, but I fell in love with the music. It’s pretty much all in Portuguese so I didn’t understand a word of it … but I loved it. It’s just so smooth and calming.

There’s this one song from “The Corruptor” that I can’t seem to track down. It’s a Chinese (Mandarin) song with a Tony Rich Project feel to it. If anyone out there knows this song, please help me out!

Yes, I’m a nutcase … I know.

I’ve been meaning to catch Dutchess online lately, but we’ve been missing each other. Since she switched jobs, she’s been online less. I don’t think she’s allowed to use Messenger at her new workplace.

I have a serious craving for BBQ Pork and Soy Sauce Chicken on Rice right about now … *oi*

Speaking of cravings … oh, nevermind …

… & write back @ ya’!

Gish : Sometimes I wish I had more interesting things to write about. I read my own postings as of late and I see what a boring life I lead. Oddly enough, during one of my phone convos with Rugby Chick, she made mention that one of my more memorable moments.

It makes me wish I had an anecdote per day so that I could share it with people. Lately, I’ve been just working and getting worked to the bone by indecisive clients. I haven’t seen as many of my friends as often as I’d like. I’m not out and about doing all the things I wish I had time for. My love life is nonexistent. I lack that sense of humour and wit to make others laugh.

… maybe it’s time for me to find a way to compensate … ???

Ghis … x 4 : Let me just say that I’m truly honoured to have been able to actively help you procrastinate during your work hours!

As I know I’m pretty much free to express myself here on my blog, in the past I’ve made the mistake of having posted my opinions on a sensitive matter regarding a situation that one member of my audience was not quite mature enough to handle. Needless to say, we are no longer friends.

Although no one else disagreed with my arguments, the act of my posting my views was ridiculed by many – and rightfully so, as I wholeheartedly agree that my action of posting was totally inappropriate. It is after this incident that I’ve decided to censor my postings from that point forward.

As I doubt I can bring Kira out to the wedding, I’ll try to bring her out to the “planning party”. You should bring Solly!

Jovo : What do you have against Erykah Badu? I love her work!