Posted: 12/11/2003 in None

I had a huge write-up in repsonse to WingMan‘s post. It went something along the line where I defended all of my actions:

… blah blah blah …

… “you can take your once advice and fuck off …” … “it’s my blog and I can bitch if I want to …” …

… blah blah blah …

… “in case you haven’t noticed, I haven’t brought up this topic with any of you since way back when – as I have pormised …” …

… blah blah blah …

… “don’t insult my friends … they are your friends too …” …

… blah blah blah …

… “don’t tell me to grow up … just let me be me as you claim you do others …” …

… blah blah blah …

I was headed into my concluding statments when I stopped to think … “Now why would a guy I’ve been friends with so long, whom I know gives a shit about me … say that?”. So I logged off and thought. And thought. And thought.

In the end, it I noticed a little something. I’ve always believed that he and I are very much the same. Nothing can be the further from the truth when it come down to it. We’d say what’s on our minds. We don’t sugar-coat it. We offer the truth, and honesty. All too often, the “truth” is only met with appreciation when it’s something one wants to hear. So you can imagine why it is that I felt a little odd when I realized how happy I was about it, even though it was an attack on me. Strange isn’t it?

In conclusion, I realized that despite differing ‘camps’ on my issues with the present situation, I will neither draw support from one or the other. I have said it before – that it was never my intention to create camps … to divide people … to change minds. This was always my own little sounding board, “thoughts of the moment” … And so, if you ask “what of your postings?”, my answer to that is simple:

I stand by it. I am a man of my convictions. I will not take back what I’ve stated. These are my thoughts, and they are my thoughts. I will not apologize for them. I have been found to stand corrected, and I do so willingly. That is not to say that I do not regret having posted – made public – some of these thoughts. I do regret having done so in the past, but it’s for me to live with. I have no problems with that at all.

So, it is with this is mind that I’m annoucing that I’m shutting down this blog. As it is, this blog seems to have been causing pain for some of my dear friends. This was never to have meant to have such an effect. By my continuing to post I may/will continue with reckless regard of how it affect others. My disreguard to how my actions will affect my friends will make me no better than those that have wronged me.

There will be no ‘secret’ blog. No replacement blog. None of the sort. And please don’t try to convince me otherwise. Frankly, I need this not to communicate with others. It was always just a little something for myself that I decided to share with others. I never used it to “keep in touch” with people. Will I start up another blog? Maybe. Who knows? There are no plans for it as of now.

Thank you for having been a wonderful and supportive audience. All the best to you and yours. Cheers!

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