Archive for December, 2003

Posted: 12/11/2003 in None

I had a huge write-up in repsonse to WingMan‘s post. It went something along the line where I defended all of my actions:

… blah blah blah …

… “you can take your once advice and fuck off …” … “it’s my blog and I can bitch if I want to …” …

… blah blah blah …

… “in case you haven’t noticed, I haven’t brought up this topic with any of you since way back when – as I have pormised …” …

… blah blah blah …

… “don’t insult my friends … they are your friends too …” …

… blah blah blah …

… “don’t tell me to grow up … just let me be me as you claim you do others …” …

… blah blah blah …

I was headed into my concluding statments when I stopped to think … “Now why would a guy I’ve been friends with so long, whom I know gives a shit about me … say that?”. So I logged off and thought. And thought. And thought.

In the end, it I noticed a little something. I’ve always believed that he and I are very much the same. Nothing can be the further from the truth when it come down to it. We’d say what’s on our minds. We don’t sugar-coat it. We offer the truth, and honesty. All too often, the “truth” is only met with appreciation when it’s something one wants to hear. So you can imagine why it is that I felt a little odd when I realized how happy I was about it, even though it was an attack on me. Strange isn’t it?

In conclusion, I realized that despite differing ‘camps’ on my issues with the present situation, I will neither draw support from one or the other. I have said it before – that it was never my intention to create camps … to divide people … to change minds. This was always my own little sounding board, “thoughts of the moment” … And so, if you ask “what of your postings?”, my answer to that is simple:

I stand by it. I am a man of my convictions. I will not take back what I’ve stated. These are my thoughts, and they are my thoughts. I will not apologize for them. I have been found to stand corrected, and I do so willingly. That is not to say that I do not regret having posted – made public – some of these thoughts. I do regret having done so in the past, but it’s for me to live with. I have no problems with that at all.

So, it is with this is mind that I’m annoucing that I’m shutting down this blog. As it is, this blog seems to have been causing pain for some of my dear friends. This was never to have meant to have such an effect. By my continuing to post I may/will continue with reckless regard of how it affect others. My disreguard to how my actions will affect my friends will make me no better than those that have wronged me.

There will be no ‘secret’ blog. No replacement blog. None of the sort. And please don’t try to convince me otherwise. Frankly, I need this not to communicate with others. It was always just a little something for myself that I decided to share with others. I never used it to “keep in touch” with people. Will I start up another blog? Maybe. Who knows? There are no plans for it as of now.

Thank you for having been a wonderful and supportive audience. All the best to you and yours. Cheers!

Posted: 12/02/2003 in None

Anyone who knows me knows that I love sports. By this blog, you know I love rugby. But fact is, I love hockey just as much. Sure, I haven’t been writing a lot about my beloved ‘Nucks or much of the Rugby World Cup, as I’ve been busy with school and whatnot … but I’m a die-hard fanatic …

I am also extremely patriotic to my country. I’ve got a bit of a beef with those people whom are invited to and decline to represent their country. I can understand if the case would be a matter of retirement, injury, health concerns, dire family matters … fine. But perfectly good and healthly individuals refusing to play? … bah! Mario Lemieux hacked it with a bad back , and “The Great One” Wayne Gretzky played past his prime … all for the Great White North.

Now … those guys that don’t play bother me enough … but those that choose to play for another country really gets my blood boiling … Adam Deadmarsh of Trail, BCBrett Hull, son of the lengendary “Golden Jet” Bobby Hull, of Belleville, ON … both play for the U.S.. Fact is, they couldn’t cut it way back in the junior days, so they opted to hop south of the border.

Just now, while watching TSN SportsCentre I heard this:

“One name missing from the list of invitees is Brady Murray, son of L.A. Kings‘ head coach, Andy Murray. The University of North Dakota forward asked not be considered as he apparently intends to take a guaranteed spot on Team U.S.A. rather than try out for one on Team Canada. That’s intriguing if for no other reason than Andy Murray has been a big part of Hockey Canada over the years and is vying for an assistant coach’s position with the World Cup team. For TSN, I’m Bob McKenzie.”

… sick … sick bastards … mark my words … “biting the hand that feeds you is asking for your teeth kicked in”

Posted: 12/02/2003 in None

… can’t sleep … mind boggled … heart uneasy … soul restless …

… feeling … a lot of angst …

“Here’s to me in my sober mood,
When I ramble, sit, and think.
Here’s to me in my drunken mood,
When I gamble, sin, and drink.
And when my days are over,
And from this world I pass,
I hope they bury me upside down,
So the world can kiss my ass!”

… only way to offer you but a taste of it …

Posted: 12/02/2003 in None

Been so busy lately … so much to do, but so little time … And as per the advice of The Landlord, yes, my actual landlord … “… college just isn’t college without a good beer bash! … C’mon, Warz! Relax a little!”.

So the the Ruggers and I organized a kegger at The Rugby House for last Friday. Had a blast. In-fucking-credile party. I even got completely shit-faced … first time in years. Glad to report that I didn’t puke or suffer any hangover. Met a ton of people; more than I can remember. Good times to start the weekend, but it didn’t end that way.

I had a some big plans for this last weekend. My fellow SGS ’96 grads in my area (Berty, Timothy, Lemon, Dumbass and Donut Dude) were slated to meet up, have a nice sit-down dinner and catch up. I had all the boys and their significant others on retainer for Saturday. What I neglected to realize, or rather remember, was that Bonehead was going to be in town to visit Dumbass. It simply slipped my mind.

Anyhow, at the last minute, I find that Dumbass is calling me to cancel because of a “sudden change in date of a previous engagement”. With that, we lost 2 of the guys for dinner. Given the dwindling numbers, others decided bail as well as they had opted out of other engagements for this dinner. At this point, I can’t help but think that Bonehead‘s “inability to play well with others” lead to all of this. I would not be surprised if he’d contacted Babydoll knowing that she and I have had split – he hadn’t made any effort in contacting her these last few years at all. We all know he’s had a history of actively maintaining friendships that you don’t. “Maybe he’s a afriad of competition?”, says some … nay … says most …

After this weekend, I was quite surprised at how some people see him. Even guys that barely know him have very little nice things to say about him. I knew some of our fellow Old Boys didn’t like him much. I was taken aback when some of my friends (whom have only met him a few times) said they didn’t think much of him either. I was surprised that some people could even hate him. But I was shocked to have heard a story where someone hated him after having only met him once. Ouch … that hurts … poor guy …

Speaking of which … some of you have really good memories. That email from Bonehead, I still have not read. I’m rather surprised so many of you have even asked about it – especially those new friends that don’t even know him. I’ve received a bit of advice from some of the Ruggers … that I should, indeed, read that email before I head home. Perhaps, I will … but I’m pretty sure I know what it’ll be all about. “… blah blah blah … I never said that … blah blah blah …” … yadda yadda … whatever … I’ll read it when I read it. And I’m sure you’ll all hear about it when I do.